This one felt like the right place to start the album because it does not arrive with certainty.

It is that private moment where you know you have been keeping something out, but you are not sure anymore if that is protecting you or just keeping you lonely.

The whole song sits inside that question:

what if I let it in?

Lyrics

There's a presence in the room tonight
Like a word I almost said
Everybody moving past me
Gets a little in my head
I know how to keep it level
I know how to play it cool
I can hold my breath for hours
I can make that look like truth

What if I let it in
What if I let it move
What if all this talking to myself
Ain't anything to prove
What if I let it in
What if I quit that part
What if the thing I keep shut down
Is the realest thing I've got

What if I was softer with myself
What if I stopped keeping score
What if I quit building little scenes
Just to lock another door
There's more to me than this, I know
I can feel it when I'm still
But I keep acting for the cheap seats
Like that noise knows who I am

What if I let it in
What if I let it move
What if all this talking to myself
Ain't anything to prove
What if I let it in
What if I quit that part
What if the thing I keep shut down
Is the realest thing I've got

I don't need another line to live by
I don't need a cleaner name
I don't need to say I'm different
If I'm doing it the same
Maybe nothing has to save me
Maybe nothing has to end
Maybe all I ever needed
Was to stop and let it in

What if I let it in
What if I let it stay
What if all the good I talk around
Is one breath away
What if I let it in
What if I start right here
What if the thing I'm always running from
Is the only thing that's clear